TheElegantRedDot

In the beginning, when I first wrapped my fingers around an automatic camera, with very little manual control, I took pictures of local neighborhood flowers. To be honest with you, instead of paying attention to the picture, I was experimenting with my "New" device. When I took my first picture of Dianthus flowers, I thought it was astonishing! I was excited and confident, I thought I was a brilliant artist much like the ones that were taught in high school, such as Leonardo and Rene Magritte! Of course, just taking photos of local flowers that everyone has seen before is not all that amazing. Although, sense I was new to photography, I found it great! I loved being able to examine the details on the flowers and seeing things that my eyes wouldn't have noticed unless there was something that would point it out. But It wasn't only taking pictures of the flowers and picking up on the details that triggered my interest. It was the experience of running around, sneaking on everyone's front yard and taking shots of their gardens. In other words, it's not just taking photos that caught my attention, it was also the experience I've had.
Then It My interest turned into self portraits and expression, because I had problems expressing emotionally how I felt at the time. Specially between high school and college, I wasn't sure who to talk to and how to pick up on conversations that would actually start a genuine friendship. It seemed, after 11th grade through college, most of my close friends moved on with their lives and disconnected from our friendship. I was also going through depression without medication and that made things a lot more difficult. It was hard to stay motivated but at the same time, I found it to my advantage by using photography to express myself. In other words, photography is my number one way of communicating to others.
When I started taking photography classes in college, at this point, I was unsure of what I really wanted to take photos of until one of my professors finally asked, what do you emotionally connect to? Before I had taken his class, I was very depressed and honestly had no emotional interest in anything. Everything was task, eating, having to sleep, if it wasn't laying in my room to cry then I absolutely didn't want to do it. After a few months, the foul feeling of sorrow and dread started to numb, but in result it took all of my positive emotions with it. In other words, I couldn't sense my own emotions. It was as if I disconnected from human society and became one with a robotic machinery company. So When he asked what I emotionally connected to, I went home, wanting to be angry because I thought I wasn't capable of continuing photography. I sat in my room for two days thinking about and wondering if I, at least had a tiny interest in anything. Well instead of trying to look forward to finding an interest, I decided to go back in time, mentally. I started a project called, my childhood imagination and brainstormed on most of the things I enjoyed as a child. Sense, I wasn't able to be inspired and find any interest at the time I thought to think about what amazed me when I was kid. I presented this project to my professor and he liked the idea and I started the project. From that day on, I truly wanted to take photos that were very imaginative and also involved a little bit of psychology. Fine art, is my true passion when it comes to photography because it has everything to do with my imagination and how my brain reacts to things. I take these photos to see how everyone else reacts to these things and observe how their imagination has inspired around it.